The Places Where I Accidentally Disappear

What activities do you lose yourself in?

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People often ask what activities make you lose yourself.

As if it’s some neat little hobby list.

Like:

Reading.

Painting.

Yoga at sunrise.

Very aesthetic. Very organised.

Unfortunately, my mind does not operate like a well-labelled storage box.

I don’t schedule losing myself.

I simply… vanish.

Sometimes it happens while writing.

A sentence arrives quietly, like a shy guest, and before I know it, I am chasing words through paragraphs as if they are fireflies in the dark. One thought becomes another, then another, and suddenly an hour has passed.

No warning.

No permission taken.

Illustrating does this too.

When a blank digital canvas stares back at me, I tell myself I will “just add a small detail.”

A line here.

A shadow there.

Next thing I know, I am zoomed in at 400%, arguing with a pixel.

This pixel, apparently, holds the fate of the entire universe.

Sometimes I disappear into thoughts instead.

Not dramatic thoughts. Just the quiet wandering kind.

The kind where a simple idea grows branches —

What if…

Why do we

Isn’t it strange that…

And suddenly my mind is exploring philosophical forests when I was only supposed to be making tea.

The tea, by the way, is usually cold by the time I return to reality.

And then there are moments when nothing “productive” is happening at all.

Just watching the sky change colours.

Listening to a song too many times.

Or staring at something ordinary until it quietly becomes beautiful.

Those moments are dangerous.

Because that’s when time slips away most politely.

No drama.

No announcements.

Just a gentle disappearance.

So if you ask me what activities make me lose myself…

The honest answer is this:

Anything that feels a little magical, a little curious, and slightly unnecessary to the practical world.

Writing.

Illustrating.

Thinking too much about small things.

Apparently, my favourite hobby is accidentally leaving reality for a while.

And honestly?

I’m not in a hurry to come back.

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—Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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I’m Rajeshwari💕a fashion illustrator by day, a writer at heart. While my illustrations tell stories through colors, textures, and designs, my words explore the tales that live in my mind and heart❤️. This is my little corner to weave both passions together, one sketch and one sentence at a time.🤍✨

83 thoughts on “The Places Where I Accidentally Disappear

  1. A beautiful read;
    And a reminder that there are things that make us different from each other…

    Maybe it’s something that gives us an identity of our own—
    When we look into the abyss and stare at it lost in our own mind without a worry…!

    The passage of time is the fastest when we are within our own thoughts…!

    A realistic read and an insight into our lives as people before writers or artists…!

    🤍😇

    1. Thank you for reading. I’m really happy it connected with you. Sometimes those quiet moments with our own thoughts do reveal a lot about who we are. Glad you enjoyed the piece. 🤍😇

  2. What a beautifully written piece, Rajeshwari! Your prose has this wonderful, meditative quality that draws the reader in and makes them feel like they’re sitting right beside you, watching those thoughts unfold in real-time.

    I particularly love how you describe your relationship with time when you’re creating. The way you capture that moment of becoming “zoomed in at 400%, arguing with a pixel” is so perfectly relatable for anyone who creates digitally. And that line about the pixel holding “the fate of the entire universe” made me smile — it captures that beautiful absurdity of creative obsession so well.

    Your metaphor of sentences arriving “like a shy guest” and thoughts as “fireflies in the dark” is genuinely lovely. There’s a gentleness to your writing that feels authentic rather than performed, which is rare.

    The cold tea detail is perfect too. It’s those small, grounding observations that make your reflection feel so real and human.

    And your closing thought — that your favourite hobby is “accidentally leaving reality for a while” — is just wonderful. I think many of us who create or daydream will recognise ourselves in that.

    The world needs more people who notice ordinary things until they “quietly become beautiful.” Please don’t be in a hurry to come back from those disappearances. 😍🤝

    1. Oh my God, thank you so much Srikanth ji for such a beautiful and thoughtful comment. I truly didn’t expect someone to read the piece so closely and notice all those little details. Your words really made me smile. I’m so happy the thoughts and small moments in the piece resonated with you. Thank you again for taking the time to write something so kind and encouraging — it means a lot to me.🤍✨

  3. I too felt like how it would be to leave this reality and live in our own world. In fact, I have started day dreaming or rather “night” dreaming at the time in between lying in bed and before going to sleep. I created my own world and stories, adventures, oh….so many things. I even have my own big castle…..

    After growing up, now I don’t do this….but it was a good feeling at young age. It somehow gave me hope that life can be happy.

    nice post ji…😊

    1. Sorry for the late reply — I’m just catching up with my comments. Thank you Girish ji, for sharing this so beautifully. That little world you created with stories, adventures, and even a big castle sounds magical. I think many of us carried such secret worlds once… and they quietly gave us hope and comfort. Your memory really made me smile. 😊

  4. A beautifully written reflection, Rajeshwari. It captures those quiet moments when creativity and curiosity gently carry us away from time and routine where writing, art, and simple observation become small forms of magic.

    1. Sorry for the late reply — I’m just catching up with my comments. Thank you so much Vijay ji for your kind words. I’m really glad the reflection resonated with you. Your appreciation truly means a lot and makes those little moments of writing feel even more special. 🤍✨

    1. Sorry for the late reply — I’m just catching up with my comments. Thank you so much for your kind words. I’m really happy the feeling resonated with you. Yes, sometimes those gentle little disappearances into thoughts and creativity turn out to be the most meaningful moments. ✨

  5. A relatable and thoughtful piece!
    This pixel, apparently, holds the fate of the entire universe.
    So simple, yet profound! Well done 👍💐

    1. Sorry for the late reply — I’m just catching up with my comments. Thank you so much for your kind words! I’m really glad that little “pixel holding the fate of the universe” line resonated with you. Sometimes the tiniest details end up feeling the most profound while creating. I truly appreciate your thoughtful reading. 👍💐

  6. I love creating content and working on my dream to become a producer that is the one and only thing that gives me happiness and saves me from the loneliness I owe due to depression and mental health issues

    1. I truly feel you… sometimes the things we create become our safest place. I’m really glad you have something that holds you through it all… keep going, your dream matters. 🤍✨

  7. Hey there friend, I like this daily prompt and I agree that there are certain activities we lose ourselves in, I like to BLOG about my passions which is Mens Fashion and currently, I am writing new PDF books and editing them myself without an EDITOR and I have lots of blogging and writing work to do this APRIL. Cheers

    1. That sounds amazing being so deeply immersed in your passion is truly something special. ✨
      Wishing you a productive and fulfilling April with your blogging and writing journey keep creating and shining! Cheers 😊

  8. I relate to so many of these! The arguing with a pixel, sometimes it comes as the one off hair strand on the paint brush! The song on repeat ! It feels like a privilege to be whisked away by these things. Like we have been chosen to cross over to another dimension, the most secret invitation comes directly into the heart and leaves in a sigh of relief !
    Thank you for putting this whimsy into words

    1. Hi! Thank you so much, that really means a lot ✨
      And congratulations on your first posts that’s a lovely start! I’ll be happy to check them out 😊

  9. I wouldn’t say that you’ve “left reality” (which we often associate today with “the practical world” and what we “physically see”), but perhaps your awareness shifts between “the practical world” (which we see with the eyes in our face) and attempting to explore a ‘Higher Deeper Reality’ (Which we See with our Heart’s Eyes). I’m still in The Process of gathering some thoughts on this and perhaps also putting together an infographic to illustrate, if I get a chance I will publish a post on my blog about this. Definitely needs more conversation.
    Thank you for sharing this personal experience, it captures something very real that I think happens to all of us even without noticing or being aware. Sometimes things just flow and happen without us even meaning to … I think there is also a theme of surrender and alignment to explore here also, something deeper inside of us attempts to surface and to express itself and influence our Attention towards a particular direction.

    1. Thank you for this thoughtful perspective ✨
      That shift in awareness and sense of surrender really resonates. Would love to read your post when you share it 😊

    1. I can totally understand 😊 It’s not easy with kids… but even a few quiet moments for yourself can bring that feeling back. Hope you find that ‘me time’ again soon 💛✨

  10. On a high level, it feels like this is how I spend my ‘me time’ but you’ve definitely bring out what it means spending those time. Allowing self to disappear, surrendering ourselves in the moment.. just be.. thank you for this piece

    1. Thank you so much Cassandra😊 You’ve understood it so beautifully… that ‘just be’ feeling is exactly what I meant. Really glad it connected with you 🤍✨

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  12. I am completely charmed by your descriptions of time. And I completely agree with this: “Apparently, my favourite hobby is accidentally leaving reality for a while.”

    1. That line feels like stepping into time itself… as if a home remembers every soul that ever belonged to it. Beautifully haunting in the softest way. ✨

    1. I can relate to that. ✨ There’s something deeply calming about creating without a destination, just letting the mind wander through lines and shapes. 🎨🌸

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