The Morning I Pretended I Was Fine (But Missed You Anyway)

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I sit near the window every morning,

acting like I’m here for the sunrise

but honestly—

I’m here because missing you has become

my unexpected full-time job.

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The sunlight walks in like it owns the place,

and I’m like,

“Great. Even the morning shows up before you.”

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My tea stares at me,

I stare back,

and we both know

we’re thinking about the same person.

(Yes, you. If you’re reading this,

take the hint.)

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I wrap my saree around me

like it’s emotional support fabric—

dramatic, silky, and very good at hiding feelings

I pretend I don’t have.

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Flowers outside bloom on time,

unlike some people I miss.

The birds sing their cute songs,

while I’m here trying not to double-text.

Growth is happening.

Slowly.

Painfully.

Like my WiFi.

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Some days I think I’m totally fine.

Other days I look at the sunlight and go,

“Wow, that glow used to be you.”

(Annoying, but true.)

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I miss you—

not in the sad-teary Bollywood way,

but in the

“can-you-please-teleport-here-so-I-stop-overthinking”

kind of way.

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And even though I pretend to be calm,

collected,

mysterious…

my heart has already done

a dramatic backflip

the moment your name crosses my mind.

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So here I am—

collecting sunrises,

collecting feelings,

collecting proof that yes,

I miss you…

sweetly, stupidly,

and with all my quiet sarcasm.

—Rajeshwari 🧿💕

“Digital illustration of a woman in a pink silk saree sitting near a sunlit arched window, surrounded by vibrant bougainvillea and greenery, absorbing a calm morning atmosphere.”
Created with love — Rajeshwari

(Poem & Illustration ©Rajeshwari.

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11 responses to “The Morning I Pretended I Was Fine (But Missed You Anyway)”

  1. SRIKANTH Avatar

    Rajeshwari, this is beautifully heartfelt and so wonderfully you — the perfect mix of wit, longing, and that quiet strength wrapped in a saree. Your words truly glow, just like the sunrise you wait for. 💙

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      Aww… this means so much to me Srikanth ji. 💙
      Thank you for seeing not just the words, but the emotion quietly woven between them. Your kindness truly feels like a gentle sunrise of its own. Grateful for your warmth and encouragement always. 🤍✨

  2. Vijay Srivastava Avatar

    Rajeshwari ji… 🙏
    This is the true beauty of your writing, it never allows emotion to become heavy; instead, it seats it gently in the light.
    This piece is truly beautiful. The balance you have created between subtle humor, tender longing, and self-acceptance is what makes it distinctive.
    Lines like “emotional support fabric” and “WiFi-like growth” bring a soft smile, yet leave a quiet touch within the heart.
    This is not merely a poem about missing someone, but about living that feeling with grace and quiet dignity.
    Tender, vivid, and written straight from the heart.

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      Vijay ji, I’m truly humbled by your beautiful and thoughtful words… thank you for reading so deeply between the lines. 🤍✨ It means a lot to know that the emotions didn’t feel heavy, but instead found a gentle space in the light just the way I hoped they would.🤍✨
      Encouragement like this reassures me that Nihshabd my small, quiet corner for heartfelt reflections is slowly reaching where it’s meant to.
      Grateful for your warmth and kindness always.🙏✨
      —Rajeshwari

  3. Rudresh kapadi Avatar

    Wowww so amazing written ✨your the one who express the emotion very beautifully and kindly💙i really like your way to express your emotions✨🤌🤌

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      Aww, thank you so much 💙✨
      Your words truly mean a lot to me. I just try to write what my heart feels. I’m so happy it resonates with you so beautifully 🤍🤌✨

      1. Rudresh kapadi Avatar

        Your wellcome😊

  4. expressdispatch96 Avatar

    you left me with no word to appreciate you

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      That truly means a lot, your words just made my day brighter! ✨😊

  5. KK Avatar
    KK

    A heartfelt piece beautifully written. And illustration is really awesome 👌🌹💐

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      Thank you so much! 😊
      I’m really glad you liked both the piece and the illustration — truly means a lot to me. 🌸🤍✨

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