Too Weird to Follow, Too Chaotic to Lead 👑

Are you a leader or a follower?

“Leader or follower?”
Neither, honestly 😭

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I’m the self-appointed queen of my own chaos. 👑✨

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Some days my brain gives TED Talks,
some days my heart starts a rebellion,
and some days the butterflies in my stomach
run a full circus without permission 🦋🎪

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I don’t follow crowds…
but trusting me as a leader is also a risky business.
Even my own plans look at me and say,
“Girl… be serious for once.” 🫣

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My inner compass doesn’t point north.
It points toward
“whatever feels dramatic and fun.” 💫

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And honestly?
I’ve stopped trying to look “sorted.”
The universe clearly made me with extra glitter,
questionable decisions,
and a personality that treats peace like a temporary side quest 😌

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I romanticize tiny moments,
argue with myself like a podcast guest,
create fake scenarios before sleeping,
and somehow survive every emotional plot twist
with late-night overthinking,
pretty sunsets,
and pure cinematic delusion ✨🌙

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People keep asking me to “pick a lane,”
but I am the traffic, the weather, and the unexpected detour 😭🦋

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So no
I’m not a leader.
I’m not a follower.

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I’m just the main character
of a beautifully confused little universe
where logic is optional,
vibes have permanent authority,
and chaos wears a tiny invisible crown 👑💫

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A dark dreamy aesthetic poster with soft butterflies, golden sparkles, and elegant typography reading “Too Weird to Follow, Too Chaotic to Lead” signed by Nihshabd. 🦋✨
Too magical for rules, too chaotic for labels 👑🫣

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—Rajeshwari 🧿💕

© Nihshabd by Rajeshwari. All Rights Reserved

Comments

42 responses to “Too Weird to Follow, Too Chaotic to Lead 👑”

  1. Kailash Dhurwe story lover Avatar

    बहुत ही अच्छा लिखा है आपने

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      बहुत-बहुत धन्यवाद आपका 🙂

  2. Kailash Dhurwe story lover Avatar

    आपको फॉलो कर दिया है आपके फॉलोबैक का इंतजार रहेगा

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      Mene to apko pahle hi follow kar diya hai 😊Thank you for following me🙂

  3. Kailash Dhurwe story lover Avatar

    आपकी writing मुझे काफी पसंद है 😊और आपने मुझे follow भी किया, इसलिए लगा कि आपसे खुलकर बात कर सकता हूँ।एक बात पूछूँ — क्या आप pen name से लिखती हैं?अगर comfortable हों तो आपका real name जानना चाहूँगा।

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      Aww 😊 आपका message पढ़कर सच में बहुत अच्छा लगा।
      और नहीं, मैं pen name से नहीं लिखती 😄 मेरा real name Rajeshwari है 🌸

  4. Aptivi Avatar
    Aptivi

    Hehe 😆 That is chaotic!

    I enjoyed reading this. Three days of chuckling and chaos! 😆

    Have a great Friday, Rajeshwari! ☺️

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      Hehe 😆 This made me smile honestly ☺️🌸
      Wishing you a beautiful Friday filled with little happy moments ✨

      1. Aptivi Avatar
        Aptivi

        Thank you so much! ☺️ You made my day brighter, to be honest. 🌸

  5. SRIKANTH Avatar

    What a beautiful, sparkling, and wonderfully honest piece of self-expression, Rajeshwari! 👏✨

    You’ve perfectly captured the art of being gloriously, unapologetically you—and that’s honestly so much more inspiring than any leader or follower could ever be. Your chaos sounds like pure magic, your inner compass clearly knows exactly where the joy is, and that tiny invisible crown? It looks fantastic on you. 👑

    Keep being the traffic, the weather, and the most delightful detour. The world needs more main characters like you. 💫🦋

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      Aah this was genuinely so sweet to read 😭 Srikanth ji✨ You made my silly little thoughts sound so magical and lovable that I didn’t even know whether to laugh, smile, or just quietly adore this whole message 🌸☺️

  6. Girish Mani Avatar

    We are all there at that point sometimes in our lives….😅

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      And somehow those are the moments that make life the most interesting too 🦋✨

      1. Girish Mani Avatar

        That’s true alright…..

  7. Circle Of life Avatar

    So beautifully written

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      And so beautifully understood too 😄🦋✨Thank you✨

  8. Vijay Srivastava Avatar

    Wow… what an incredible piece of self-expression!

    This is not just a post, but a celebration of the beautiful chaos that lives somewhere inside every sensitive and imaginative soul.

    You described chaos with such grace, humor, and poetic charm that every line feels deeply relatable.

    “I am the traffic, the weather, and the unexpected detour…” that line honestly felt like a cinematic masterpiece

    The most beautiful part is that you didn’t try to appear “perfect”; instead, you embraced your beautifully imperfect individuality with complete honesty. And that is the real charm.

    Some people follow rules…
    and some people create an entirely different universe with their own vibe.
    This piece belongs to the second category
    Vijay

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      Vijay ji, This is so beautifully written that for a moment it felt like someone didn’t just read the post… but truly felt it 🦋✨ The way you understood the chaos, humor, imperfections, and that “beautifully confused universe” behind the words honestly touched my heart. And “some people create their own universe with their vibe” has officially become one of my favourite lines these days 💫
      Sometimes even the person writing the words doesn’t realize they’ll be understood this softly and warmly by someone else… so truly, thank you for reading it with so much kindness and heart 🌙✨

  9. Praveen Yadav Avatar

    “Being the main character of your own confused little universe sounds like a much better plan than following any crowd. This was a delightful read!

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      Honestly, that confused little universe may not always make sense… but it definitely makes life far more interesting 😭🦋✨ And I’m so happy you enjoyed wandering through its chaos 💫

      1. Praveen Yadav Avatar

        “I couldn’t agree more! There’s a certain magic in the chaos that makes the journey feel so much more alive. Thank you for wandering through it with me—it’s much more fun having a fellow seeker along for the ride

  10. vermavkv Avatar

    This is wildly creative, charming, and full of personality. ✨ The writing flows like a beautiful mix of humor, self-awareness, chaos, and poetic imagination. Every line feels vivid and relatable, especially the way you turn overthinking and emotional randomness into something magical and cinematic. “I am the traffic, the weather, and the unexpected detour” is such a brilliant line. A wonderfully unique piece with unforgettable energy. 🦋👑

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      This is such a beautifully thoughtful comment Verma ji🦋✨ The way you understood the chaos, humor, and cinematic little madness behind the words honestly made me smile so much 💫
      And now “traffic, weather, and unexpected detours” accidentally sounds way deeper than I intended 😂👑

      1. vermavkv Avatar

        That’s the best kind of writing though — the lines that begin playfully and somehow end up revealing unexpected truth. 😂✨
        Your piece had that rare mix of whimsy, honesty, and self-aware chaos that makes people laugh and feel understood at the same time.

      2. nihshabdblog Avatar

        This made me smile so much 🦋✨
        I love when playful little thoughts accidentally turn into something people genuinely connect with 💫

  11. Rupali Avatar

    You are the queen of your own kingdom. Keep shining girl 🌸💕

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      Thank you so much Rupali, queen energy recognized by queen energy 👑🦋

      1. Rupali Avatar

        🤗

  12. Hazel Avatar

    I’d like you to speak in TED Talk.🤩 I’ve been watching that before.

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      Now I’m imagining myself walking onto a TED Talk stage with butterflies instead of preparation 😭🦋✨

  13. aniruddhakaul Avatar

    The header sums it up perfectly. Too weird to follow, too chaotic to lead. It resonates with me as well, I just discovered, having read your post. It triggerd a journey of self-discovery, which I feel will roll on long. The Universe has a way to reach us and it has been reaching out through you.

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      Dear, Aniruddha ji, This is one of those comments that feels less like words and more like a quiet, heartfelt connection 🦋✨ And somewhere between your lines, it felt comforting to know that there’s someone else too who understands this beautifully chaotic little universe so deeply. 💫
      Your last line truly stayed with me 🌙

  14. aniruddhakaul Avatar

    🙏🙏

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      🤍🤍✨

  15. oluwasoromidayo Avatar

    Whao! 🙏 ♥️

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      And somehow the weirdest little thoughts end up finding the warmest hearts 🦋✨

  16. CAN’T DO THIS IN A GYM! Avatar

    Interesting…

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      Glad it made you pause for a moment. ✨🌙

  17. KK Avatar
    KK

    Very interesting write! The last line is superb. Well done, Rajeshwari 👌💐💗

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      That makes me so happy KK. 🥹💗 Glad the ending touched your heart a little. 🌙✨

  18. Swamigalkodi Astrology Avatar

    Appreciated

    1. nihshabdblog Avatar

      That means a lot. Thank you 💛🙏🏻

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