Tag: self awareness

  • For Every Woman Who Forgot Her Spark✨

    For Every Woman Who Forgot Her Spark✨

    Don’t Lose the Spark

    Somewhere between growing up
    and holding everything together,
    many of us learned a strange lesson—

    How to be responsible,
    but not how to stay alive inside.

    We learned to answer messages,
    meet deadlines,
    pay bills,
    carry burdens.

    But slowly, without noticing,

    we stopped laughing so hard our stomach hurt.

    We stopped dancing in the kitchen.

    We stopped doing things simply because they made us happy.

    The world applauds the woman who sacrifices herself for everyone.

    Rarely does it applaud the woman who refuses to disappear.

    So this is your reminder:

    The spark was never childish.

    The spark was never foolish.

    The spark was you.

    It was the part of you that believed life was meant to be lived,
    not merely survived.

    The part that laughed too loudly,
    dreamed too boldly,
    loved too deeply.

    Please don’t trade her away
    for acceptance.

    Don’t bury her beneath expectations.

    And don’t confuse exhaustion with maturity.

    Because one day you’ll realize—

    The most beautiful thing about you was never your perfection.

    It was that wild, glowing, unapologetic light
    that made people feel warmer just by standing near you.

    So wear the bright lipstick.

    Take the silly photo.

    Laugh at your own joke.

    Start again.

    Be too much for people who prefer less.

    And if anyone tells you to dim your light,

    smile and let them wear sunglasses.

    The world doesn’t need another woman who fits in.
    It desperately needs the one who remembers who she is.
    ✨🖤

    With love,

    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

    © Nihshabd by Rajeshwari. All Rights Reserved

  • Everyone I Met Changed Me Somehow ✨

    Everyone I Met Changed Me Somehow ✨

    Share a story about someone who had a positive impact on your life.

    Honestly… at this point, my entire life feels like one long educational group project where everyone came to teach me something. 😭✨

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    Some people came like motivational speakers

    “Believe in yourself.”
    “Follow your dreams.”
    “Stay positive.”

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    And some came like unpaid life coaches disguised as red flags. 🚩😂

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    One taught me patience by replying after 3 business days.

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    One taught me self-respect by underestimating me.

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    One taught me boundaries by crossing every possible one.

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    One taught me trust…
    and then personally demonstrated why trust issues exist. 😭

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    But if I’m being real, every person left behind something valuable.

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    The kind ones reminded me that humanity is still soft somewhere beneath all the noise.

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    The difficult ones taught me strength I didn’t know I had.

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    The temporary ones taught me that not everyone is meant to stay forever… and that’s okay.

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    And the people who hurt me the most?
    Surprisingly, they pushed me closest to myself.

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    Because after every disappointment, every awkward ending, every silent goodbye…
    I met a newer version of me.
    A stronger one.
    A calmer one.
    A wiser one.

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    So when people ask,
    “Who had the biggest positive impact on your life?”

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    I genuinely cannot choose one person.

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    Some healed me with love.
    Some healed me with lessons.
    Both mattered.

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    And maybe that’s the beautiful thing about life
    not everyone enters our story to stay,
    some simply arrive to help us become who we were meant to be. 🌸✨

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    A dreamy sunset-themed featured image with glowing lights, a journal, and the title “Everyone I Met Changed Me Somehow” beside the name Nihshabd. ✨
    Some people became memories, some became lessons… all became a part of me. 🌸✨

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    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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  • Your Report Is Normal. You’re Not.

    Your Report Is Normal. You’re Not.

    Report Pending

    Not every test needs to be about blood levels,
    sometimes… you should run a scan on your heart too.

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    Maybe it’s not your hemoglobin that’s low
    maybe your patience ran out somewhere between
    “it’s okay” and “I’m tired.”

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    Maybe it’s not a vitamin deficiency,
    maybe you just haven’t felt
    a little genuine warmth in a while.

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    Calcium seems fine, sure
    but your backbone?
    slightly bent… from always adjusting for others.

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    And this “I’m fine” report
    you keep handing out like free samples
    have you ever actually verified it
    with yourself?

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    Because the real deficiencies
    don’t show up in lab results.

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    They show up in late replies,
    in cancelling plans you once looked forward to,
    in saying “it’s nothing”
    when it clearly… isn’t.

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    But hey,don’t panic.
    This is pretty standard these days.
    A little broken, a little tired,
    a little too good at pretending
    welcome to the package deal 😄

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    Just… once in a while,
    put yourself back on your own priority list.

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    Before one day the report reads:
    Personality: Low
    Care for self: Critically low

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    Prescription:
    Take a break.
    And maybe… take yourself seriously for once.

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    A moody, sepia-toned illustration of a person sitting alone overlooking a city at sunset, with a medical report marked “normal” and handwritten notes reflecting hidden emotional struggles.
    Everything looks fine… until you look a little deeper.

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    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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  • Where “Later” Quietly Cost Me

    Where “Later” Quietly Cost Me

    Write about a time when you didn’t take action but wish you had. What would you do differently?

    The Time I Chose “Later.”

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    It’s strange how most regrets don’t come from what we did
    but from what we kept postponing… very politely.

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    In love,
    I didn’t say it when it was still soft and simple.
    I waited—for the “right moment,” the perfect clarity,
    some cinematic certainty.

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    By the time I was ready,
    the moment had already moved on…
    like a train that doesn’t announce its last call.

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    Turns out, love doesn’t always need perfect timing
    just a little courage before overthinking takes over.

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    In education,
    I didn’t ask that one “stupid” question.
    You know the one—sitting at the edge of your tongue,
    but held back because “what will people think?”

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    Everyone else nodded. I nodded too.
    Understanding… optional.

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    Years later, I realised
    confusion doesn’t disappear when you hide it.
    It just becomes more expensive.

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    In health,
    I ignored the small signs.
    The fatigue, the “it’s probably nothing,”
    the habit of choosing convenience over care.

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    Nothing serious happened.
    But something subtle did
    I got used to neglecting myself… gently, consistently.

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    And that’s the kind of damage that doesn’t make noise.

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    In career,
    I didn’t take the chance.
    Not because I couldn’t
    but because I wanted guarantees.

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    I told myself, “I’ll try when I’m more ready.”
    But readiness is a moving target…
    it keeps shifting just enough to keep you still.

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    And the funny part?

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    None of these were big, dramatic failures.
    No disasters. No headlines.

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    Just small moments where I chose “later”
    over “maybe now.”

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    If I could do it differently,
    I wouldn’t try to control everything.

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    I’d speak a little sooner.
    Ask a little more.
    Listen to my body before it whispers louder.
    And take chances before they turn into “what ifs.”

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    Because life rarely collapses in one big moment.

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    It quietly changes direction
    in all the times we say

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    “Not now… maybe later.”

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    We spend so much of life waiting to be ready
    for the right time, the right words, the right version of ourselves.

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    But life doesn’t wait for perfect.

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    So the next time something in you says “maybe now”…
    don’t silence it with “later.”

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    Because sometimes,
    that quiet nudge is the moment itself.

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    A minimalist sunset scene with a person sitting by a lakeside, a notebook and pen on a wooden table, featuring the text “The Time I Chose ‘Later.’” and the name Nihshabd.
    The quiet cost of choosing “later.

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    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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  • 10/10 Would Not Recommend

    10/10 Would Not Recommend

    Describe a decision you made in the past that helped you learn or grow.

    The best decision I ever made?

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    Oh, easy—

    choosing something that was very obviously a bad idea…

    and still going ahead like, “no no, this one feels different.”

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    It did not feel different.

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    I stayed longer than required,

    explained things that needed zero explanation,

    and gave chances like I was running a free trial nobody asked for.

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    At that time, it felt like hope.

    Then it felt like confusion.

    And eventually… it felt like I was the problem.

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    Plot twist: I wasn’t. 🙂

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    I just had a PhD in

    “let me fix this one last time.”

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    But honestly, 10/10 experience—

    because nothing teaches you faster

    than realizing you’ve been arguing with reality itself.

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    Now I still make decisions…

    I just don’t debate with red flags anymore.

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    I see them,

    I respect them,

    and I leave them exactly where they belong

    in someone else’s story. 😌✨

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    Sunlit collage with “10/10 Would Not Recommend,” a woman’s silhouette, and a beach photo symbolizing growth and self-choice, signed “Nihshabd.”

    Bad decision. Great lesson. 10/10 would not recommend but it still made me better. 😌✨

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    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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  • Maybe the Community Doesn’t Need Fixing. Maybe I Do.

    Maybe the Community Doesn’t Need Fixing. Maybe I Do.

    How would you improve your community?

    How would I improve my community?

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    By doing something slightly uncomfortable.

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    I’d stop assuming I’m always right.

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    Not a great personality trait to give up, I know.

    But most of our “community issues”

    feel less like real problems…

    and more like a collection of people

    (me included)

    who don’t pause long enough to think,

    “Maybe it’s not just them.”

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    I’ve judged people in seconds.

    Misread silences.

    And replied “hmm” to things

    that probably deserved a little more heart.

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    Efficient? Yes.

    Helpful? Not really.

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    So maybe… I’d start there.

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    I’d listen. Properly.

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    Not the kind where I nod

    while preparing my next sentence

    but the slightly uncomfortable kind

    where I don’t interrupt,

    don’t fix,

    don’t turn it into my story.

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    Just… listen.

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    I’d also retire my habit

    of building full personalities for people

    based on one moment.

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    Because apparently,

    people are not trailers.

    You don’t get the whole story in 30 seconds.

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    And kindness

    I’d stop treating it like a rare personality trait

    and start using it like a default setting.

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    No announcements.

    No “look how nice I am” energy.

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    Just…

    a softer tone,

    a delayed reaction,

    a message I choose not to send.

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    Because sometimes,

    what I don’t say

    improves things more than what I do.

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    And when I don’t understand someone

    instead of guessing, decoding, overthinking

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    I’d ask.

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    Directly. Simply. Humanly.

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    Will this fix everything?

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    No.

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    Someone will still misunderstand.

    I’ll still have off days.

    And someone will definitely still send

    “Good Morning 🌹” at 6 AM.

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    But maybe

    someone around me

    will feel less judged.

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    One conversation

    will feel a little safer.

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    One moment

    will feel… lighter.

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    And honestly,

    if my presence can do that

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    then maybe I didn’t fix the whole community…

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    but I stopped making it harder to live in.

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    And these days,

    that itself feels like a pretty good improvement. 🙂

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    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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  • Not What You Do… What You Ignore Makes You Different

    Not What You Do… What You Ignore Makes You Different

    Which aspects do you think makes a person unique?

    I think what makes a person unique is… what they choose to ignore.

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    Not what they love.

    Not what they achieve.

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    But the things they see… understand…

    and still go,

    “yeah… not worth my energy.”

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    Because let’s be honest

    Some people react to everything.

    Tone, timing, punctuation, the way you said “okay.”

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    And some people?

    They read, understand, overthink a little…

    and then just close the chat like,

    “I choose peace… and snacks.”

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    You’ll notice

    Some people can’t ignore a single message

    like it’s their moral responsibility to reply.

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    And some…

    will see the notification,

    process it emotionally, mentally, spiritually…

    and still decide:

    “I’ll get back to this in another lifetime.”

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    And no, ignoring doesn’t mean they don’t care.

    Sometimes it just means

    they’ve unlocked a level where

    not every situation deserves a reaction,

    not every thought deserves a speech,

    and not every “hmm” needs a paragraph reply.

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    Meanwhile

    Some of us will notice everything,

    overthink everything,

    create 3 alternate scenarios…

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    and still reply:

    “haha makes sense” 👍

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    Growth? Maybe.

    Confusion? Also yes.

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    That’s uniqueness.

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    Not what affects you

    but what doesn’t anymore.

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    Not what you say

    but what you consciously decide

    not to turn into a whole episode.

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    And honestly? 😏

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    Some people aren’t unique because of what they go through…

    they’re unique because of what they refuse to entertain.

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    A thoughtful person sitting by a window, quietly looking outside, with the text “Not What You Do… What You Ignore Makes You Different” and “Nihshabd” displayed on the image, reflecting introspection and calm silence.
    What you ignore defines you.

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    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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  • When “Being Big” Was the Only Plan

    When “Being Big” Was the Only Plan

    When you were five, what did you want to be when you grew up?

    When I was five,

    I didn’t want to be something…

    I wanted to be everything

    (with zero effort, obviously).

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    Doctor

    because I owned a plastic stethoscope

    and confidence levels higher than actual doctors.

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    Teacher

    just to say,

    “Silence!”

    to people who weren’t even talking.

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    Pilot

    because I thought waving hands

    could control air traffic.

    (Still think that sometimes in traffic jams.)

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    And sometimes…

    I just wanted to be my mother.

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    Wearing her saree,

    standing in front of the mirror,

    fixing pleats that never stayed,

    pretending I had somewhere important to go.

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    No job title.

    No big dream.

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    Just… her.

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    Then came the real ambition

    to be “older.”

    Not successful.

    Not happy.

    Just… older.

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    Because older people

    had no homework,

    no bedtime,

    and unlimited authority

    to say “because I said so.”

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    Scam of the century, honestly.

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    I also wanted to be rich

    so I could buy

    all the chocolates in the world…

    and still cry over the wrong toy.

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    Priorities were clear.

    Logic was not required.

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    Funny thing is

    nobody asked,

    “What will you actually become?”

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    Because at five,

    dreams didn’t need backup plans,

    or Excel sheets,

    or self-doubt.

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    They just needed

    a random Tuesday afternoon

    and a little imagination.

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    Now people ask me that question

    with deadlines in their eyes.

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    “What do you want to be?”

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    And I almost say

    five again.

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    Because back then,

    I wasn’t confused…

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    I was just

    limitless without pressure.

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    Now I’m focused…

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    …on pretending I know

    what I’m doing.

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    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

    © Nihshabd by Rajeshwari. All Rights Reserved

  • ✨They Built. We Are Becoming✨

    ✨They Built. We Are Becoming✨

    What were your parents doing at your age?

    This question sounds innocent.

    Very innocent.

    But the moment someone asks it, your mind panics like it just heard,

    “So… where do you see yourself in five years?”

    At my age, my parents were already married.

    With kids.

    With responsibilities.

    With zero time to sit and overthink life.

    And my mumma?

    She wasn’t just managing the house.

    She was working.

    Earning.

    Contributing.

    Holding two full-time roles without calling either of them a “struggle.”

    Office files in one hand,

    school notebooks in the other,

    and somehow — love everywhere.

    She came back from work, cooked meals that tasted like comfort,

    kept the house running,

    knew everyone’s schedule,

    and still had the energy to ask,

    “Sab theek hai na?”

    Honestly, I still don’t know where that energy came from.

    Probably the same place where she kept extra strength, patience, and magic.

    At my age, my mother didn’t chase balance.

    She created it — quietly, gracefully, daily.

    And my dad?

    He was right there.

    Working hard.

    Providing.

    Supporting.

    Being steady — the calm in the chaos.

    He wasn’t loud about it.

    He didn’t announce sacrifices.

    He just showed up.

    Every day.

    My parents were a team.

    Both earning.

    Both contributing.

    Both carrying responsibility — together.

    No long speeches about equality.

    No hashtags.

    Just daily practice.

    They didn’t discuss “sharing the load.”

    They simply shared it.

    They didn’t talk about burnout.

    They had tired eyes, aching backs — and still showed up.

    They didn’t say,

    “I need space.”

    They said,

    “Ho jayega.”

    And somehow… it did.

    They didn’t google,

    “Is it normal to feel lost?”

    They didn’t have the option to feel lost.

    Life had already handed them roles and deadlines.

    And us?

    We think.

    We overthink.

    We over-overthink.

    Then we google why we overthink.

    Then we’re tired.

    Our parents didn’t have therapy language.

    But they had emotional strength we’re still trying to decode.

    They didn’t talk about work-life balance.

    They lived it — imperfectly, honestly.

    And before we judge ourselves too harshly — let’s pause for a second.

    Because the truth is…

    I’m doing good too.

    Maybe not in the loud, trophy-holding way.

    But in the quiet, everyday way.

    I show up.

    I try.

    I learn.

    I fall.

    I get up — sometimes slowly, sometimes dramatically.

    I am handling pressures they never had.

    I am unlearning things they never had time to question.

    I am choosing awareness, even when ignorance would be easier.

    I may not have figured everything out —

    But I am figuring myself out.

    And that counts.

    A lot.

    But let’s be honest.

    They didn’t live in a world where everyone’s life update was in your pocket.

    They didn’t compare their reality to strangers before brushing their teeth.

    They weren’t expected to:

    earn well heal emotionally stay calm stay kind stay relevant

    All at the same time.

    So yes —

    They did a lot at our age.

    But so are we.

    They were busy surviving and building.

    We are busy understanding and becoming.

    They built homes together.

    We are trying to build peace — sometimes with coffee, sometimes with chaos.

    So the next time someone asks,

    “What were your parents doing at your age?”

    Smile.

    And think:

    They did their best — as a team.

    And I’m doing my best — in my own way.

    Different times.

    Same effort.

    And honestly?

    That’s more than enough. 😊💛