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  • ।। यूँ तो  ।।

    ।। यूँ तो ।।

    ।। यूँ तो ।।

    यूँ तो आसान लगती हूँ मैं,
    जैसे कोई हल्की-सी कहानी…
    पर हर कोई मुझे महसूस कर ले,
    इतनी भी आसान नहीं।

    यूँ तो हँस देती हूँ हर बात पर,
    जैसे सब ठीक ही हो…
    पर हर कोई उस हँसी के पीछे की खामोशी समझ ले,
    इतना भी कोई करीब नहीं।

    यूँ तो चलती रहती हूँ आगे,
    बिना रुके, बिना शिकायत…
    पर हर कोई मेरे ठहर जाने की वजह जान ले,
    इतना भी कोई अपना नहीं।

    यूँ तो खुली हूँ मैं हवा की तरह,
    बिल्कुल बेझिझक, बेपरवाह…
    पर हर कोई मुझे सच में छू पाए,
    इतना भी कोई खास नहीं।

    यूँ तो मैं मैं ही हूँ…
    पर हर किसी के लिए एक जैसी नहीं। 😌

    हर उस स्त्री के नाम,
    जो बहुत कुछ महसूस करती है…
    पर सब कुछ कह नहीं पाती।
    जिसकी आवाज़ अक्सर रह जाती है —
    निःशब्द।


    ।। Just Like That… ।।

    I may seem simple,
    like a light, passing story…
    but not everyone
    can truly feel me.

    I smile at almost everything,
    as if everything is fine…
    but not everyone
    can understand the silence behind that smile.

    I keep moving forward,
    without pause, without complaint…
    but not everyone
    knows why I sometimes stop.

    I appear open, like the wind,
    carefree and unrestrained…
    but not everyone
    can truly reach me.

    I am who I am…
    but I am not the same for everyone. 😌

    For every woman
    who feels so much…
    but cannot always say it all.
    Whose voice often remains —
    unspoken.

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    A woman seen from behind sitting by a sunset, with Hindi text “यूँ तो…” and “निःशब्द”, reflecting quiet emotions and inner depth.
    यूँ तो सब ठीक है…पर कुछ बातें अब भी निःशब्द हैं 😌✨

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    —Rajeshwari ( राजेश्वरी ) 🧿💕

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  • My Life Has No Direction… and That’s Exactly the Direction 😌

    My Life Has No Direction… and That’s Exactly the Direction 😌

    What gives you direction in life?

    Honestly?
    Even Google Maps gets confused sometimes…
    so who am I to always know the way? 😌

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    I don’t get direction from a perfect plan,
    I get it from wrong turns.

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    Mistakes say, “Don’t do that again.”
    Experience says, “Maybe be a little less foolish this time.”
    Confidence?
    It shows up… and then randomly goes on vacation.

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    Patience?
    That’s just a buffering circle… constantly spinning 🌀

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    Passion is sometimes fire 🔥
    and sometimes low battery mode 🔋

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    And love…
    love is that GPS that somehow finds the heart even without a signal ❤️

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    Creativity gets activated at 2 a.m. for no reason,
    and courage…
    courage is that friend who says,
    “Let’s just do it… we’ll deal with the consequences later.”

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    Empathy and sympathy?
    They remind me I’m not a robot 🤖❌

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    So what actually gives me direction?

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    Not one thing.
    It’s a slightly chaotic team effort.

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    Mistakes show me where not to go.
    Experience shows me what might work.
    Passion pulls me forward.
    Love keeps me grounded.
    And courage gives me that final push when I’m overthinking everything.

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    So my direction isn’t a straight arrow…
    it’s more like a messy but honest compass

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    pointing me forward, even when I don’t fully know where “forward” is. 😌✨

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    A person sitting at a viewpoint, looking at a winding road toward the sunrise, symbolizing an uncertain yet hopeful life journey.
    No map, just courage… and I’m still going 😌✨

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    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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  • No Quote, Just Life 💛

    No Quote, Just Life 💛

    Do you have a quote you live your life by or think of often?

    I’ve never really been someone who collected quotes or lived by big words. Life, for me, has always been quieter… simpler. Just trying to live each day fully, hold on to peace, and find happiness in little, unnoticed moments.

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    I don’t carry quotes in my pocket,
    nor words borrowed from somewhere else…
    Just a quiet little wish,
    to live this life as it comes.

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    To feel the sun without rushing,
    to sit with silence sometimes,
    to smile for no reason at all,
    and call that happiness.

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    Not chasing too much,
    not holding too tight,
    just walking gently through days,
    with a heart that feels light.

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    If there’s anything I believe in,
    it’s this simple art
    to live fully, stay peaceful,
    and keep a soft, happy heart. 💛

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    Woman sitting by a lake at sunset with a journal and coffee, text “No Quote, Just Life 💛 — Nihshabd”.
    No quote, just life… softly lived 💛

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    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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  • It Was Never About the Place

    It Was Never About the Place

    What is your favorite holiday? Why is it your favorite?

    Honestly… every holiday magically becomes my favorite

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    when I’m with my favorite people.
    (Yes, even the ones where half the time goes in “kya khayenge?” discussions 😄)

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    Places?
    They’re just… places.

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    It’s the people who turn
    “just a trip” into
    “yaar, remember that moment?” forever.

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    But okay, if I have to choose—
    our Dubai vacation wins.

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    At LEGOLAND Dubai and the DreamWorks Animation Zone,
    something unexpected happened…

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    I didn’t just enjoy the rides—
    I forgot I was supposed to be “the responsible adult.” 😌

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    I’ve always loved rides,
    but this time?
    I went all in.

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    Screaming louder than my kids,
    getting more excited than them,
    and pretending I wasn’t scared
    (while internally questioning all my life choices mid-ride).

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    Somewhere between the laughter, the chaos,
    and the “one more ride please!”
    I wasn’t just a mother anymore…

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    I was a child again.
    A slightly dramatic one, but still.

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    And maybe…
    that’s exactly why it felt so special.

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    Because I was surrounded by people
    who didn’t remind me to “grow up,”
    but quietly allowed me to let go.

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    And that’s when it hit me—

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    Because in the end,
    it was never about the place…
    it was about who I became when I was with them.

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    A little more free,
    a little more alive,
    and completely myself… without holding back.

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    The kind of happiness
    that doesn’t need permission,
    and the kind of moments
    you wish you could pause… just for a little longer.

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    Maybe that’s why
    some memories never really leave…
    because they don’t just stay in our mind,
    they quietly become a part of who we are.

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    A joyful moment at a Dubai theme park, capturing carefree laughter, childhood nostalgia, and togetherness.
    Not the place… just the people who made it feel like home. 💛

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    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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  • Nature Is Calm… But My Imagination Is Not 😌🌿🐜

    Nature Is Calm… But My Imagination Is Not 😌🌿🐜

    Have you ever been camping?

    I genuinely love nature 🌿💚
    Like… properly love it.

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    Watching birds 🐦, butterflies 🦋, dragonflies ✨…
    it feels like the world slows down just a little for me.
    Trees 🌳, plants 🌱, flowers 🌸—all those colors 🎨💫
    like nature casually showing off… and I’m not even mad about it 😌

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    The open sky ☁️💙, the soft cricket symphony at night 🎶,
    that first deep breath of fresh air 🌬️—
    honestly, it feels like life resets for a moment 🤍

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    I could sit there for hours…
    doing nothing, thinking nothing, just being 🌿✨

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    But camping?
    No baba no 😭✋

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    Because while I’m busy admiring nature’s beauty…
    my brain is running a parallel storyline:
    “What if a tiny insect chooses your ear as its dream destination?” 🐜👂🫠

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    No warning. No permission. Just… plot twist.

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    And the funny part?
    Nothing like this has ever happened to me.
    Yet my mind is fully prepared for this extremely unnecessary documentary 😭

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    So yes, I love going out, I love nature, I love the whole vibe 🌄💛
    but when it comes to actually sleeping there…

    I suddenly become very aware of my life choices 😌

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    I’ll admire the stars ✨, smile at the silence 🤍, feel the breeze 🌬️…
    maybe even romanticize life for a solid 10 minutes 💫

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    and then quietly decide

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    some things are meant to be loved…
    from a safe distance 🏡🌿

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    because nature is peaceful…
    but my imagination?
    fully wild.

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    A serene nature scene with birds, flowers, and a calm lakeside, featuring the text “Nature is calm… but my imagination is not – Nihshabd.”
    Peace outside, chaos inside 😌

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    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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  • I’m Not Lazy, I’m Deadline-Dependent

    I’m Not Lazy, I’m Deadline-Dependent

    When do you feel most productive?

    When it’s almost too late to be productive.

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    Not 1 hour before.
    Not even 30 minutes.

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    More like… 12 minutes before the deadline.

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    That’s when my brain suddenly unlocks premium features.

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    Focus? Activated.
    Speed? Unmatched.
    Distractions? Disappear like they were never there.

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    No overthinking.
    No procrastination.
    No “let me get in the mood.”

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    Just pure survival mode.

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    The same task I’ve been “about to start” for 2 days?
    Done. Submitted. Sometimes even suspiciously good.

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    And the funny part?

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    When I do have time
    I become extremely productive… at everything except the actual work.

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    I’ll organize things.
    Clean something that didn’t need cleaning.
    Check my phone “for 2 minutes.”
    Mentally prepare like I’m about to change my life.

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    But the task?
    Still waiting. Still untouched.

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    Because apparently, my brain doesn’t respond to free time.
    It responds to panic with consequences.

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    Give me a whole day I’ll waste it professionally.
    Give me 20 minutes I’ll deliver results that surprise even me.

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    So yeah…

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    I’m not inconsistent.
    I’m not lazy.

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    I’m just… performance-based.

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    And my system only works when there’s
    a little chaos, a lot of pressure, and absolutely no time left. 🤡✨

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    A cozy, cluttered desk scene with a girl working on a laptop under pressure, surrounded by sticky notes, coffee mugs, and a bold text: “I’m Not Lazy, I’m Deadline-Dependent.
    Powered by panic and last-minute brilliance. 🤡✨

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    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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  • My Emoji Personality: Cute, Chaotic, and Slightly Concerning 😄🤡

    My Emoji Personality: Cute, Chaotic, and Slightly Concerning 😄🤡

    What are your favorite emojis?

    Oh, I don’t choose emojis… emojis choose me.

    Like 😄 my public personality.
    Sweet, sorted, “everything is fine.” (Everything is not fine.)

    Then there’s 🙃 — for when life flips me but I pretend it’s a personality trait.

    😂 — reserved for things that are not that funny but socially require laughter.

    🤡 — exclusively for myself. Premium membership. No cancellation.

    ✨ — added randomly to make chaos look aesthetic.

    😌 — used after doing absolutely nothing, but feeling like I deserve peace.

    And of course…
    👀 — for silent judgment, curiosity, and accidental stalking.

    Basically, my emoji usage is less “expression” and more “emotional survival toolkit.”

    What about you? Be honest… are you a 🙂 person or a 😭 person?

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    Colorful emoji-themed graphic with playful text “My Emoji Personality: Cute, Chaotic, and Slightly Concerning” and Nihshabd.
    Cute outside, chaotic inside 😄🤡✨

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    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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  • Your Report Is Normal. You’re Not.

    Your Report Is Normal. You’re Not.

    Report Pending

    Not every test needs to be about blood levels,
    sometimes… you should run a scan on your heart too.

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    Maybe it’s not your hemoglobin that’s low
    maybe your patience ran out somewhere between
    “it’s okay” and “I’m tired.”

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    Maybe it’s not a vitamin deficiency,
    maybe you just haven’t felt
    a little genuine warmth in a while.

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    Calcium seems fine, sure
    but your backbone?
    slightly bent… from always adjusting for others.

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    And this “I’m fine” report
    you keep handing out like free samples
    have you ever actually verified it
    with yourself?

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    Because the real deficiencies
    don’t show up in lab results.

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    They show up in late replies,
    in cancelling plans you once looked forward to,
    in saying “it’s nothing”
    when it clearly… isn’t.

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    But hey,don’t panic.
    This is pretty standard these days.
    A little broken, a little tired,
    a little too good at pretending
    welcome to the package deal 😄

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    Just… once in a while,
    put yourself back on your own priority list.

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    Before one day the report reads:
    Personality: Low
    Care for self: Critically low

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    Prescription:
    Take a break.
    And maybe… take yourself seriously for once.

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    A moody, sepia-toned illustration of a person sitting alone overlooking a city at sunset, with a medical report marked “normal” and handwritten notes reflecting hidden emotional struggles.
    Everything looks fine… until you look a little deeper.

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    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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  • From ‘Hi’ to Existential Crisis

    From ‘Hi’ to Existential Crisis

    What topics do you like to discuss?

    I like conversations that don’t feel like conversations.

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    The kind that start with something random
    and somehow end up questioning life choices, childhood memories,
    or why we overthink texts that just say “hmm.”

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    I like talking about silence too
    not the awkward kind,
    but the one that says more than words ever could.

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    I enjoy topics that don’t need conclusions.
    Dreams that haven’t made sense yet,
    people we almost became,
    and feelings we don’t have proper vocabulary for.

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    Also…
    a little sarcasm, a little humor,
    because if we’re not laughing at life,
    what exactly are we doing

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    So yeah,
    anything real, anything unfiltered
    those are my favorite topics.

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    A girl sitting by a window with coffee, reflecting as the text “From ‘Hi’ to Existential Crisis” appears.
    Some conversations don’t end… they stay with you. ☕✨

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    —Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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  • The Risk of Letting Go Quietly

    The Risk of Letting Go Quietly

    When is the last time you took a risk? How did it work out?

    When was the last time I took a risk?

    Not the kind people clap for.

    No big announcement.
    No dramatic “leap of faith.”
    No story worth turning into motivation reels.

    I just… stopped.

    Stopped explaining myself.
    Stopped trying to be understood by people who had already decided not to.
    Stopped fixing things that weren’t even mine to fix.

    And honestly?
    That felt riskier than anything else.

    Because when you don’t chase,
    you don’t control the outcome.
    You just… watch.

    Watch who stays.
    Watch who leaves.
    Watch what falls apart without your effort.

    It’s uncomfortable.
    It’s quiet.
    It messes with your head a little.

    But somewhere in that silence,
    you realize—

    Not everything needs your involvement.
    Not everything deserves your energy.

    Did it work out?

    Well…
    I didn’t get answers.

    I got something better—
    distance from things that were never right for me.

    And maybe,
    that’s how some risks pay off.

    Not every risk is loud. Sometimes it’s choosing silence over explanation, stepping back instead of chasing, and letting things unfold without your control. And in that quiet, you don’t find answers—you find distance from what was never meant for you.

    A girl sitting by the water at sunset with the text “When was the last time I took a risk?” and “Nihshabd”.
    Some risks are taken in silence. 

    Rajeshwari 🧿💕

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