What’s the oldest things you’re wearing today?
The oldest thing I’m wearing today
is the way I still fall in love with tiny things. 🌸
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Tiny joys.
Tiny moments.
Tiny unnecessary happiness that serves absolutely no purpose except making life feel softer.
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I still look at the moon like she personally came to visit me.
I still pause for orange skies, old songs playing from another room, cold pillows, and the smell of books I had no intention of buying.
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Some people became cooler with age.
I became the kind of person who whispers “the sky looks so pretty today” like it’s confidential information.🫣
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I still listen to songs older than me like they’re personal memories.
I still open cupboards just to touch my mother’s old sarees sometimes
soft with time, carrying the quiet fragrance of another generation.
And somehow, certain fabrics don’t just hold threads,
they hold festivals, old conversations, familiar laughter, entire versions of home.
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And honestly, I think that’s the oldest part of me.
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Not my habits.
Not my memories.
Not even the emotional damage carefully marinated over the years.
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Just this stubborn little ability to be delighted by life.
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And truthfully, I wasn’t always like this.
There was a time I thought happiness had to arrive loudly
as achievements, big moments, big plans, big miracles.
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But the last few years quietly taught me otherwise.
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Now I think life mostly happens in smaller ways.
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In warm tea.
In window seats.
In hearing your favorite song unexpectedly.
In someone remembering how you take your chai.☕️
In old songs drifting through another room while the evening slowly settles around you.
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Maybe growing up was never supposed to mean becoming less amazed.✨
Maybe the real tragedy is how many people stopped noticing the softness around them.
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Meanwhile, I’m still out here treating fairy lights like a spiritual experience and old sarees like heirlooms from another universe.
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And frankly?
I hope that part of me never ages. ✨
Someone has to keep reacting to flowers and clouds like they’re celebrity sightings. ☺️
With Love,
—Rajeshwari 🧿💕
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